Infant Loss, Stillbirth

After Finn died, a chromosomal microarray test was done to check for genetic problems. Today we met with the geneticist, and we now know the cause of our baby’s death. Finn had a condition called Trisomy 9, meaning he had three copies of chromesome 9. There are three different variations of this disorder, and Finn had full trisomy 9, meaning that all of the cells in his body and placenta had three copies of chromosome 9. Full trisomy 9 is always fatal and most babies with this issue are miscarried in the first trimester. Those that are born alive typically die in the first week of life. Finn was stillborn at 35 weeks, 1 day gestation.

Common genetic testing done during pregnancy only tests risk for the more common trisomies – 21 (Down Syndrome), 18, and 13. An amnio or CVS could have detected it, but those procedures are invasive and usually only done in when an issue is suspected since they carry a slight risk of miscarriage. In our case, the pregnancy had the appearance of being perfectly normal, and while trisomy usually causes anatomical abnormalities, the 18-week anatomy scan was normal, as was the preliminary autopsy report. Finn also had no distinct appearance markers that are typical of a chromosomal disorder. He was really quite the anomaly. Trisomy 9 usually occurs by random chance. We are currently undergoing genetic testing to determine if either of us have any chromosomal abnormalties that would give us a higher than normal risk of having a child with this condition.

Babies with full Trisomy 9 have numerous physical and mental abnormalities and are medically described as “incompatible with life”, but we know Finn was designed by a God who never meant his body for this Earth. From the moment he was knitted together in my womb, God had another plan to bring him straight into heaven. Still yet, even though the odds were against him in every way, our gracious God designed this baby I had prayed so long for in such as way to allow me 246 days to enjoy his presence in the womb before his body stopped working and his soul departed. He took Finn in the womb so we did not have to see him suffer and die in a world he wasn’t designed for. He allowed me the peaceful experience giving birth to this baby naturally, to see him enter the world and immediately be placed on my chest, and to cut his umbilical cord. This may not seem like a big deal to some, but this was one of my biggest hopes for this pregnancy after my previous c-section. He allowed me to see my son’s face and hold him, to have memories and photos of him always until we meet him again in heaven.

Psalm 139:13-16

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.


God is good, and I will praise Him in this storm.